Berdamai dengan Kanker

Sudah 5 bulan setelah pertama gw didiagnosa dengan low grade fibromyxoid sarcoma alias kanker jaringan, yang katanya termasuk kanker jenis langka. Puji Tuhan sampe sekarang gw masih sehat walafiat, masih bisa beraktivitas spt biasa. 

Cancer has changed me. Cancer has gotten me to see the deepest depth of soul. Cancer isn’t the best thing that ever happened to me, but because of it I have experienced such raw emotion. I have had such an urge to live and have such a big understanding of what a blessing it is  to breathe, to be alive, to smile, to laugh and to cry.

Eventhough this is neither the best nor the worst thing in my life, I still consider that this is a valuable experience in my life. Dan pengalaman ini juga mengajarkan gw bahwa dalam situasi terberat sekalipun gw tetap punya pengharapan. 

Dan pada akhirnya gw berusaha untuk berdamai dengan kanker. I just think that this is a part of my life. No protest, just let it flow. Karena gw yakin ketika gw terjatuh Ia tidak akan biarkan gw tergeletak. So, I just surrender my life to Him, then He will do the rest for me.